Twice. Only twice in my life have I had that awesome moment with someone where they are listening to a song and I’m left speechless at the coincidence of it. This has only happened twice, and only with one person, Abhi. The first time was last fall when we were getting to know each other. During fall break I had been obsessing over “Can’t Take My Eyes Off You” by Frankie Valli and The 4 Seasons. After the break, I met up with Abhi and at one point he played that song and I felt so weird and didn’t know how to react, so I just started laughing. I guess the main reason I feel weird about it is because my music taste is very particular and not many people share the same love for the songs that I do.
During finals a couple of weeks ago, I was struggling to make it through the last papers I had to write and suddenly the melody of “All Out of Love” by Air Supply came to my mind. It was the most random thing because I hadn’t listened to them since I was in fifth grade, and I consider them more of a guilty pleasure now (lol). But there I was, sitting on my couch, and I decided to start listening to them and fell in love all over again.
Since it was the last couple of days of undergrad, I was feeling so many different emotions while listening to their songs. A few, and only a few, tears were shed, and then I laughed at myself because I had become a cliche by sitting in the dim light crying while listening to Air Supply.
A few days ago, Abhi was listening to “All Out Of Love” and I was struck by inmense laughter once again. He didn’t understand why I was laughing so hard and, honestly, neither did I. I’m such a huge music fanatic and since I haven’t had such moments very often, I guess I don’t know how to react. I mean, I’ve had meaningful conversations with people about bands and music, but the listening of the song catching me off guard is a totally different feeling.
Why is this such a big deal for me? It really isn’t, I’m just one of those people that loves the little things, so these moments stick with me. And I want them to stick with me, especially because Abhi is so important for me. We met at the worst possible time in my life; heck I was a frickin train wreck. But somehow I was blessed with such a sweet and caring new friend.
It’s very rare to find someone so pure and loving as him, and I just feel so lucky to have been able to spend the last 10 months getting to know him. Just this past week we were able to take so many trips to Flavortown with his amazing cooking skills. And the hardest thing about leaving Monmouth next month will be not being able to see him anymore.
I have come to the realization that this is perhaps what my life will be like from now on. Lovers will come and go, but I will always have myself. Except that Abhi will never be just another person that I fell in love with, he will always be the person that helped me realize that I still have a lot of love left to give despite everything that happened to me. I find it very sad that we’re not able to stay together long-term, but I will always be grateful to have been able to meet him and spend some loving time together.